Thank Goodness This is the Week After Last Week

It is Tuesday. 

Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

The last month has been insane and the insanity all came to a culmination this past week.  Fiona’s grandparents moved to Colorado.  My brother met Fiona for the first time on Thursday.  It was the 15^th anniversary of the day my mom died on Friday and wouldn’t you know it – I looked at my phone to check the time and it was the exact time my mother had died 15 years ago.  My sister got married to her loving husband on Saturday.  All the while no laundry could be done with the facilities in our complex due to a mix up of new washing and drying machines and always closed office!  Also.  Fiona had her first bouts of the flu and Mommy and Daddy experienced their first SICK night with their daughter which resulted in 3 showers for Mommy and 4 baths for #littlebabyfiona.  What a friggin’ week.   Needless to say it was both a very sad and very happy week.  I am so happy that the week is over.  I am so happy to just be.

I have been so frustrated too because I just want to write and write and write and blog however the last thing I wanted to be was “plugged in”to a screen at my desk and really deal with emotion while the dust is still in a flurry around me. 

So instead I finished a book.  Jason and I watched Longmire on Netflix.  And I cooked and baked.  I am an emotional cooker and happy baker. 

Friday was a really rough day.  Typically, I have the view that every day is relatively similar to the anniversary to her death and I don't really have a hard time with it.  But this year, with so many things going on in 1 week, the year that marked 15, was quite emotional.  So much so that I am even writing about it in a public forum.  

However.  I feel it is appropriate to do so. 

[I just took a big breath in.] 

Talking about things like this really make me uncomfortable. 

But.

As I journey into writing more and more I must do this.

I have got to keep tugging at the cap of the jar if I want to release what is inside.

So.

Cheers to me trying.